I wish I could peek in your mind and see what you hide
There are moments I see where the real you resides
My dearest half-sister we are so far away
not just in our age, also in how we behave
But there are actions of yours, opposite of mine
that lead me to think it’s finally time
For me to reach out and actually ask
about the awful things in our past
But your telling me no, and refusing my help
saying I need to leave you to yourself
So now that the past is affecting your present
you want me to be there, but I won’t consent
I too am broken, and need some healing
I just can’t be here when you aren’t listening
I’m afraid that what I’ve done is just too much
that you’ll never be open to my rules and such
But I want you to know, if ever that changes
that I will be here to listen to all of the rages
Not just to theirs, but to mine as well
even when I hurt and the tears start to swell
Should that day not come, and our bond break
I hope you know that it is never too late
I am still broken, but now I am ready
to be the support you need to be steady
What happened to us, is not our fault
we don’t have to pretend our heart is a vault
That the lies we’ve been telling are not the end
that we really are worthy of the love that we spend
You are a human with faults and trauma
who always seems to be starting the drama
but if you ever decide to give that up
To open the vault and let it erupt
I’m here to listen and honestly say
that I’m sorry our family treated you this way
That the shit in our past doesn’t negate
all the awesomeness we have innate
You’re strong and great, it’s time you know too
that Ashlee I am actually very proud of you
The fact we survived, is more than most
and I will never forget the hurt we host
This gift I give you is the wisdom of time
even if it came in this strange rhyme:
Don’t let your past define your future
You dear are stronger than our abuser
